Sin and My Heart, Part 1

October 19, 2009

For me personally, one of the hardest things growing up as a Christian, was recognizing the power of the Cross in my life.

When I say power of the Cross here, I mean the fact that Christ died for my sins.  The fact that he would have done it if I was the only sinner.   When someone takes hold of that truth, and gets a glimpse of the amount of Love that was in Jesus when he went to the cross, that person is forever changed.  So for me the power of the Cross is not just the fact that it happened, but the freedom and redemptive nature of the Cross.

With that said, I think the hardest thing about growing up Christian is experiencing the power of the Cross in an authentic way.

It was never hard for me to understand exactly why what Jesus did was important.  Or even to know that it had to have taken a lot of love for Jesus to do that for us.  It was always hard though, to experience that Love.  I knew God loved me, but it sometimes felt like he hadn’t said it to me yet.  That’s just how it felt at times.

I think part of why that happened was one way I viewed sin in my life.  In fact I think even now that if I am struggling, or feeling dry in my relationship with God, that this particular view of sin in my life is sometimes the cause of that dryness.

That particular view is that I am not that bad.  Or even more accurately that I don’t sin that much.  Or when I do, its not the worst offenses.  Growing up I didn’t get drunk, I didn’t do drugs, I didn’t have sex. And even now I don’t do those things  So it was hard for me to realize that I did sin.

Not only that but it was hard for me to realize that I sinned a lot.  In all honesty I had.  But I was a pretty good kid.  So it didn’t seem like I had sinned a lot.  That comparison comes from comparing myself to other humans.  When looking at the sin in my life I should never get my overview from that comparison.

I needed to recognize how much I had sinned.  A lot.  I wonder how many times the average 14 year old has sinned in their life.

If the average fourteen year old sinned once a week since they were three years old it would be 572 times. That’s a pretty dang good kid though.  Only once a week is a regular John the baptist.  I imagine for me it was more like once a day, which would have been 4,015 times by the time I was fourteen.

The point I’m trying to make here is everyone sins a lot.  Or at least I sinned (and sin) a lot  Unfortunately we don’t always recognize that.  We compare ourselves to others or justify sin, or ignore sin(which will be topics for part two of this blog).

When we don’t see how much we sin, we blind ourselves from seeing the full glory and power and Love that was there on the Cross.

This wasn’t just an issue for me when I was growing up.  It’s an issue for me now.  Sometimes in my everyday life I forget this profound truth that has been revealed to me.  It usually happens after I have not sinned for a while.  Which really means, it happens when God has protected me from sin, and given me the strength to resist it.  This idea isn’t just a problem I have, in Hebrews chapter two this idea of forgetting is warned about.

Do you sometimes feel dry in your relationship with God?  Could it be that you forgot just how much he’s forgiven you? Have you forgotten how much sin you contributed to the Cross?  Have you forgotten what was done

there on the Cross



I know that I constantly forget.

I don’t want us to be a people that constantly remember all the sin that we have done.

But I do want us to be a people that remembers how much He has forgiven. And it’s lot for me. The days I acknowledge this are the days I feel closest to God.  The days that I remember all of that forgiveness are the days I really experience His love for me.


11 Responses to “Sin and My Heart, Part 1”

  1. Joe Mansor said

    You pinned the tail on the donkey with this one man…

    I definitely relate to this big time.

    To appreciate the GOOD news we have to realize how BAD the bad news really is…

  2. Amber said

    Hey Anthony! 🙂
    I like this blog. Just wanted to let you know.
    This is definitely a good reminder.

  3. Kelly said

    Excellent and right on! My Pastor always says the things we “don’t do” (for Jesus) is sin. So that adds a whole new layer huh! Yer a good kid Ant, and forgiven! Well done.

  4. Brian said

    Thank you for sharing, Christian Man.

    Often times, God is very near during those dry times. Sometimes we have to “dry up” all those distractions and attachments in our lives that actually keep us from God, from growing in that relationship with him. This is how dryness can be a good thing.


  5. Cameron said

    He who is forgiven much (or recognizes that they are forgiven much), loves much.

  6. It reminds me of the parable in Luke of the tax collector and the pharisee in the temple. the guy who knew his sins was favored in God’s eyes.

  7. Tim said

    As I read this, I imagined Ivan’s reaction… He must be thinking “at least you don’t have to sit in a booth and recant all your sins to a priest”.

  8. anthonygee said


  9. Ivan said

    Well at least you don’t have to sit in a booth and recant all your sins to a priest.

  10. Brian said

    I think at bottom, all Christians believe that it is ultimately Jesus who forgives all our sins – and what is more: ONLY Jesus can forgive our sins.

    We see instances throughout the Bible – particularly in Old Testament writings – that convey an image of “covering over” sins; but only Jesus has the power to “take them away”, as the Baptist must have known when he said, “Behold the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world” (John 1:29).

    This fundamental Truth of Christianity is not contradicted by telling/confessing sins to a priest. At bottom – and “to the depths” – it is always and only Jesus who forgives sins. Always. For without this Truth – nay, without Him and His Sacrifice, as our Passover (see 1 Corinthians 5:7) – we cannot be saved from our sins, much less our death.


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