Goals are dumb.

November 30, 2009

Yeah. I said it.

Goals are dumb.

When I look at people in the Bible, I don’t know if they had goals.  I don’t even know if Jesus had “goals” while on earth.

The people I love and respect most are the ones that don’t have goals.  But I don’t even think they know that they don’t have goals.

The crazy thing is those people are very accomplished people.  Yet they have no goals.

They are people that just want to be changed and used by God.

I know goals help people and are probably not at all bad.  In fact they might be necessary in some situations.

I just don’t think Jesus really had goals in the sense of accomplishment.  That’s what I mean when I say goals here.  I feel like usually when we talk about goals  its some new accomplishment to strive for.

Now there’s nothing wrong with living like that.  I mean I do every day probably.

I just think that Jesus lived differently.

Not that surprising to think that he lived differently.  But even now I know some of you are totally disagreeing with a lot of what I’m saying.

Before you do that though, take a second and just think are you making Jesus out to be who you want him to be, or who He was and is.

Jesus lived a life completely led by the spirit, at least thats what it seems like to me.  I hear pastors and speakers say this some times too.

Jesus didn’t come and say by the time I die I want to feed five thousand people.  Maybe he did. But I think

He just listened to what God was telling him to do.

I want a life like that.

Contradictory huh? My goal is be completely led by the Spirit and thus having no goals because I am too busy doing what God is asking me to do.

The great thing about this is I know that when I let this happen, that a lot of the goals I have now will probably just come to pass.

God wants to do in our lives, what we want to do for ourselves.

Let’s just let Him.


Dry and in need of a Comfort.

November 17, 2009

So yesterday for some reason I just began to fill funky.  There might have been a few factors.  I sent out a face book invite to church to all of my friends.  I felt led to.  And no one came, at least not anyone that already didn’t go to my church.  Now I know I shouldn’t get depressed by this, but I did.

Along with that, and bitterness, and whatever discouragement I was letting to come into my thoughts I got into a funk.

And I just didn’t know how to get out of it.

I’ve been reading a sweet book lately.

It’s called Forgotten God:Reversing Our Tragic Neglect of The Holy Spirit.  By Francis Chan.

It’s basically all about the Holy Spirit and His role in our life.  It’s a pretty good book and I suggest reading it for anyone, no matter how weirded out or not not weirded out by the Holy Spirit you are.  Hopefully you’re not in the first place.  But the book is good.

In the book Francis talks about how Jesus refers to the Holy Spirit as our comforter(John 14:16 KJV).

Yesterday I realized the Holy Spirit was what did that for me.

Pretty often I hear from a lot of different people that feel like they’re in a funk.  Or that their relationship with God is feeling dry. I feel this way every so often too.

I think the only way that dryness can go away is if we allow the Holy Spirit to comfort us.  There are gonna be times where we feel dry or in a funk.  Those are the times when we need to ask the Holy Spirit to come in and comfort us.

I don’t know if I prayed anything to the degree of Holy Spirit, come in, and comfort me. I do know that I prayed for the Holy Spirit to fill me, and that I talked to God about my funk.  At least I think I did.  I know I at least thought about my funk a lot.

By the evening of yesterday I started feeling better.  I started feeling hopeful again.  I didn’t feel like I was in a funk anymore.

And last night when I was reading Forgotten God I think that’s when I knew that the Holy Spirit had been that comfort for me.

God saw that I was feeling dry, and depressed and He filled me with the Holy Spirit in a way that comforted me.

I love this about God.

I think that the next time I feel in a funk, or depressed I am going to take time to stop and ask the Holy Spirit to comfort me.  I know that the Holy Spirit is the best comfort giver I could have.  And that’s what I want.

I don’t want to ignore the fact that God wants to comfort me.  I don’t want God to have to do it with out me asking Him to.  I want to ask God right away to comfort me.  That’s the kind of person I want to be.  A person that is rarely down and depressed because I always have the Spirt, the Comforter, the Helper, and the Advocate, working in my life.  Will you join me in that?

That’s how it goes.  For everything that is important, I need God.

I think that I can love my friends, or my girlfriend, or my family, and I realize that sometimes I can’t love any of them.  I’ll think that I can, I’ll think that I can do it just fine, and I realize can’t.  And I used to be perplexed by this. Then I realized that I can’t do it on my own.  I realized that when I call out to God and ask for love He will fill me with it.

Recently I was listening to a message by John Piper.  He was talking about humility.  He was saying that we need to be able to give God the glory in all situations, that even when we’re complimented we need to be humble enough to give God the credit.  At least that’s what I got out of it, who knows if that’s what he was saying.  Whether or not he was saying that,  I feel like I have been hearing that message a lot lately.

And I can’t handle it.  I don’t want to give God all the credit for all the good things I do.  I want to take the credit.  I think it’s because I get the credit for all the bad things I do, not God, so why can’t I have the credit for all the good things too?

It’s because no matter how many good things I do there is a point that I can’t continue doing all those good things.  I don’t know why that is.  At some point it gets harder or unrepeatable.  Maybe that’s not how it is for everybody, but that’s how it is for me.

The reason God needs the credit is because we were made to give Him the credit.  It’s the best thing for us.  These past two sentences is kind of a paraphrase of some things Piper says a lot too.

I remember one time I shared a message with the youth on one Sunday, and right after I was walking alone and said “Good Job God.”

It was weird, but a very spirit filled moment.  I don’t know what prompted me to say it.  But it felt so true and good and right to say it.

Because I am Human I can’t love everybody the same.

Or I can’t be patient in all circumstances.

Or I am not a hard enough worker.

Or I am just socially stupid sometimes.

But because I am human I can let God give me everything that matters.

Because I am Anthony

I can let God fill me with love.

I can let God make me as patient as Him.

I can let God take away my lazyness.

I can let God make me relatable to anyone.

Because I know that in the end,

I need God for everything that matters.


I have this teacher I have talked about in this blog before.  It’s in a post about loving enemies.  In an email I sent to her I said Hi and then her first name, and then asked whatever my question was.  Here is was she said at the open of her next email.

“Mr. Gee, The proper form of address to your prof is “Professor” or “Doctor,” both of which I am.”

You guys may not know me very well. But that is the kind of thing that gets my goat.  Everything in me wants to make her life  not fun.  But that of course is my flesh.

Oh man.  There is so many bad things I could say.  Instead I am going to try and humble myself.  Maybe she deserves to be called Professor, or Doctor, I mean that is what she is.  I shouldn’t have been so informal.

I think I am going to witness to her.  I really think I am.  I think clearly Jesus will get her to realize that these terms she wants to be called are full of pride.  Oops did I just judge her a little bit, my bad. Ignore that part.

Either way I just gotta keep praying/chanting the mantra Love My Enemy Love My Enemy Love My Enemy Love My Enemy.

God Help me. This is a test isn’t it?

There is this story in Joshua, about a guy named Achan.

Basically the Israelites were told to utterly destroy a town called Ai.  And not take anything from it.  So about three thousand guys go up to Ai and get whooped. God told them to only send 3000, because there are only a few people of Ai.  God was saying this was going to be an easy fight. The Bible even says the town of Ai was only a few. But Ai whoops up on Israel.

Joshua doesn’t know what happened.  He asks God what happened here.  God told Joshua that someone took from that which was devoted to Him.  They had a word in Hebrew for that.

This word comes up in these couple chapters of Joshua(6,7).  That word is kherem.  The word means to set apart or devote as an offering to the Lord.  I don’t know why this is necessary, but it was.  It basically meant that every thing had to be destroyed.  Everything.  No matter what.  Or everything had to be put in the tabernacle for the Lord.  So either this stuff had to be completely separated from God’s people or be completely destroyed.

It is more commonly translated as “things devoted for destruction”.  So I am pretty sure these items were on the way to being destroyed.

Now our boy Achan, ends up seeing a cloak, 200 shekels of silver, and a bar of gold.  Achan knew about this kherem word.  He knew that he wasn’t supposed to take those things.  He convinced himself it was okay though.  He knew he was intentionally sinning and he did it anyways.  He sees the wealth, and decides it would be better for him to have it, then to obey God.

That’s what I think the third problem with my heart and sin is.  Because of the allure, the pleasure, or fame that I think the sin can bring I will do it anyways.  I imagine Achan had some time to sit there and think about taking those things. He convinced himself that it was okay anyways.

Don’t we do that?  Sometimes we just don’t care what the consequences are, we just want to sin, because of whatever we think that sin will bring us.

But even if that sin brings us a multitude of pleasure, it’s not worth taking one step away from God.

Isn’t that what sin does?  Even as Christians, I think every time we sin, we are moving away from God, and maybe that’s not the case, but we can agree that sin hurts our relationship with God.  God doesn’t think less of us.  Sin just makes it harder to be in relationship with Him.

So what are you doing in your life right now?  What is that cloak in your life that you take, even though you know you shouldn’t?  What are you convincing yourself that it’s okay for you to keep doing?  Don’t make the mistake Achan did, don’t convince yourself that it’s okay.  Or that the wealth, or pleasure, or whatever that sin will bring will be worth it.  No sin is worth hurting our relationship with God. None.  You might think it’s worth it.  You might convince yourself it’s worth it.  Or even convince yourself doing that sin necessary.  But it is not.