Worry as Sin

May 6, 2010

I have been reading a book called Christian Atheist.

In one of the chapters it talks about the idea of worry as being sin.

Well the past couple days I’ve been worrying.

Basically my grades are not the greatest and I am on the edge of the valley of the shadow of F. The problem is that I am on the edge, and I fail one class I won’t graduate this May.  Which would suck and be embarrassing.

So as I have begun to worry about those things that could happen, and this idea of worry being sin has been popping into mind.

Its weird because basically what happens is one moment I will be like well whatever I’ve done is all that I could do for now so I just have to cross that bridge when it comes.  And where the real peace comes is when I will pray and say God I trust you, whatever happens you got me.  You’ve kept my grades up before, and if you still want to you can.  Then I will feel peace for a moment.

Then the next moment I will back to worrying and thinking about all I can do to fix the grades and what not.  I will be anxious.

I imagine what I feel each time I worry is what it felt like when Peter took his eyes off Christ, and he started to sink.

Because in those moments when I have my eyes on Christ and realize that my own failure won’t really matter in the end, that peace is what feels like walking on water.

Maybe that all sounds dumb.  But all I know is that worry does nothing for me besides make me feel yucky inside. And keeps my eyes off God.

And when I cast that worry to God, it makes me feel peace inside. It makes me feel like I am not sinking.

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2 Responses to “Worry as Sin”

  1. Reba said

    “I imagine what I feel each time I worry is what it felt like when Peter took his eyes off Christ, and he started to sink.”

    I think you summed it up perfectly with this quote. So true.
    -reba.

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