Goodbye Boyhood.

August 3, 2010

Around December I sold my Nintendo Wii.

Around the middle of May I sold my Xbox 360.

And it wasn’t even hard for me to sell those things.

I tell this because I think I am at a point in my life where I am putting off a lot of my boyish ways.  I am at a stage where I think I am becoming a man.

Mark Driscoll somewhat often kind of yells at boys. He tells adult males that they are not real men for all sorts of reasons. How they treat women, how they don’t have a job, how they play video games, and all sorts of other things.  Now when Driscoll says that stuff it always struck a chord with me. Not always because I was messing up in one of those areas but because there was something in me the knew I was holding onto my boyhood.  I was not letting myself truly start to become more of a man.

I also read a book where Donald Miller talks about how there was a stage in his life where he would never wake up early, and how there was a man in his life who did wake up early, and Miller found this to be a mark of manhood for this particular man.

Now don’t get me wrong, none of those things make you a man.  What makes a man is a weener.

But

There is something in me that knows I am growing up in a lot of ways.  I am manning up with my finances, by taking a job that isn’t my dream job, but I know I need it to become financially responsible, and even feel God leading me towards taking it.

The reason I knowing I am manning up is because I am excited to become financially responsible.  Not just doing this all out of obligation or because I have to.

There are just so many places I can see where I am putting away my boyhood for manhood.

Now don’t worry, my personality is going to stay the same, I will still be full of antics, hi-jinks, funnyness, and the good boyish things, but still I am becoming a man. So those things are going to be the man versions of those things. I am not losing anything.  I am only gaining.  God loves me enough to do this in my life even though I live in a culture of suspended boyhood.

I don’t know. It’s hard to express what exactly is going on inside of me.

It’s weird. And cool. And I just wanted to share that in my blog. I will end with a Mumford and Son’s Quote.

“Love that will not betray, dismay, or enslave you, it will set you free. Be more like the man you were made to be.” –From the song, Sigh No More.

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2 Responses to “Goodbye Boyhood.”

  1. jason nordgren said

    it gets better….cause as you said, what makes a man is a weener….

    and once you get married, and start using said weener, you have kids….

    and once you have kids, why it is your DUTY as a man to teach them how to play video games, and to buy the latest XBOX and Wii!

    it really all does come full circle. 🙂

    • anthonygee said

      haha. so true. yeah i def think all those things are totally fine, I mean I am a youth pastor after all. I just think the fact that I don’t need them anymore, and don’t mind not needing them is a sign of that man-ness.

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