That’s how it goes.  For everything that is important, I need God.

I think that I can love my friends, or my girlfriend, or my family, and I realize that sometimes I can’t love any of them.  I’ll think that I can, I’ll think that I can do it just fine, and I realize can’t.  And I used to be perplexed by this. Then I realized that I can’t do it on my own.  I realized that when I call out to God and ask for love He will fill me with it.

Recently I was listening to a message by John Piper.  He was talking about humility.  He was saying that we need to be able to give God the glory in all situations, that even when we’re complimented we need to be humble enough to give God the credit.  At least that’s what I got out of it, who knows if that’s what he was saying.  Whether or not he was saying that,  I feel like I have been hearing that message a lot lately.

And I can’t handle it.  I don’t want to give God all the credit for all the good things I do.  I want to take the credit.  I think it’s because I get the credit for all the bad things I do, not God, so why can’t I have the credit for all the good things too?

It’s because no matter how many good things I do there is a point that I can’t continue doing all those good things.  I don’t know why that is.  At some point it gets harder or unrepeatable.  Maybe that’s not how it is for everybody, but that’s how it is for me.

The reason God needs the credit is because we were made to give Him the credit.  It’s the best thing for us.  These past two sentences is kind of a paraphrase of some things Piper says a lot too.

I remember one time I shared a message with the youth on one Sunday, and right after I was walking alone and said “Good Job God.”

It was weird, but a very spirit filled moment.  I don’t know what prompted me to say it.  But it felt so true and good and right to say it.

Because I am Human I can’t love everybody the same.

Or I can’t be patient in all circumstances.

Or I am not a hard enough worker.

Or I am just socially stupid sometimes.

But because I am human I can let God give me everything that matters.

Because I am Anthony

I can let God fill me with love.

I can let God make me as patient as Him.

I can let God take away my lazyness.

I can let God make me relatable to anyone.

Because I know that in the end,

I need God for everything that matters.